socrates asked:


I’m a 16 yr old who enjoys reading National Geographics and books on biology and genetic science. I also listen to instrumentals such as piano and violin as well as orchestra on my mp3 player. If I have free time, I will take walks around the park or long walks around the neighborhood to see where I will end up, especially if its during a sunny day or a dark night. I write stories, I don’t have a television, and sometimes when I’m bored, I watch a documentary on Youtube or some other website instead of watching anime or Smallville or whatever. Reading and listening to my mp3 in the park or somewhere with lots of trees has been one of my favorite past times. I love going to the museum.

Problem is, whenever I read one of my NG’s or books on genetics in class, everyone else will look at me like I’m a freak or something. Or they would walk up asking me, why are you reading that crap? When I’m listening to my music on my mp3, someone would walk up to me and ask what I’m listening to. When I reply orchestra, they would be like “WTF is wrong with you??? If I’m seen reading in a park, people will stare at me like “oh my god, what a freak!!!” Sometimes people ask me what I did during the weekend and I replied, “oh I went to the museum again and I also saw an interesting documentary on Napoleon.” “You watched Napoleon Dynamite?” “No, Napoleon Bonaparte” “Oh…..what a freak, lets gtfo.” The teacher asked a survey on who has a TV jokingly knowing everyone had a TV. When I’m the only one who didn’t raise my hand, everyone gives me a strange stare. When I watch a documentary on Youtube and my cousin/s come by, they would be like “oh your doing homework?” “No I’m just watching for fun” “What the hell? Who watches documentaries for fun???? Hurry up cuz a new episode of Bleach and Naruto came out and I missed One Tree Hill yesterday” If I’m out on a long, late night walk, my dad would call asking where am I and I would reply that I’m taking a walk. Then he would reply, “What???!!! Get your *** back here and stop wasting time!!!” So am I a freak, a geek, or just plain ****ing weird? Help me, I feel so isolated and lonely now.

MARA